While my Mum and her "guy friend" drank a pack of beer and a bottle of wine, I sat at my stool listening to her fight with her beau.

Ice types naturally are very defensive and cold (LOL pun. /: ) and being the Glaceon I am, I needed to escape. I picked up a pencil and my notebook and doodled my friends; Pikachu, Misdreavus, Vaporeon, Umbreon, Smeargle and Chinchou. I was very lonely, and at the far bottem I doodled the Glaceon. I missed my friends so and gave them white butterflies, but I gave none to me; I was creating them.

Anger possesed me. I wished for pain, death, suffering, metaphorically of course. As it was, lately I was wandering closer and closer to the fires that consume and destroy so many. So I enveloped myself in fire, and gave my butterflies fire, and selfishly trust it upon my friends. I was angry. I'm too young to be this angry, but I was, and still am. But my depression came back to me. Looking upon my "doodle" I realized that I needed to change a lot in my life.

What happened when a Glaceon gets too close to fire? The other Pokemon suffer too.

P.S. I never saw a white butterfly in Mississippi.

"Okay. Imagine you have a conjoined twin and you both shared the same body. And now imagine he's gay, and he has a date tonight. And you only have one bunghole. What do you do? BWAHAHAHAHAAH."

Oh man I love my sister. Who else thinks of this nonsense?

"I Can't Let Go."

So once again it's here I find myself
In this house, my self-built hell.
They give me all they can, and try
Yet everyone's words, they're all just lies.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
I'm a screw up. Mood ruiner.
Over depressive, manically paranoid.
Disgusting. Filth. Unloved. Hated.
Blind.

My friends had all left me lying in the dirt.
They won't come back, so I won't show i'm hurt.
But things are looking up, my dreams all matter.
Yet I can't relive my memories all filled with laughter.

In the maze I run and scream.
Behind me follows my demon.
But when I stop running
This monster i'm desperately hiding from,
In this maze with no exit,
That I was thrown into,
The demon I stare into the eyes of
Is me.

This pain, I have no one to blame but me.
I'm just a mistake, can't you all see?
I built these walls to keep you all out.
But I just want you all to tear them down.

We all avoid pain.
Of course.
But people all seek out
The greatest pain of all.
Love.

Love can be great,
Only if you find the right kind.
Yet most kinds we seek,
Cause us to lose our minds.

You are my angel, My Sunshine.
But why are you so cold?
It's selfish... But.
I'm here.
I don't mean to hurt anyone.
I just seek from you.
Love. Acceptance. Recognition.
I want you to be proud of me.
I want you to open up to me.
But you won't will you?
I'm sorry.

I can't do anything right.
Even though I look towards the light.
Just more promises I seem to break.
All because I try to escape.

Hold me in your amrs.
But don't tell me,
"It'll all be okay."
It's not, but I know it can be.
Show me it will, prove it.
There is a better life, world.
But only if you're all there.

You. My friends. That I love.
Even if, I push and I shove.
There's something greater.
And we're gunna get out.

Happiness, I know, is a few steps ahead.

The Pieces of my world have shattered and are being shared. Two have it all, and another has earned a piece.

I make the unlikeliest friends.

guess who has an important online Algebra II test due tomorrow?
guess who's sister left her graphing calculator at her friend's house?
guess who's mad at the world?

FUCK MY LIFE!!!